Britney Spears is angry, depressed and has been lying to her fans about being OK. In a fiery speech, she told the judge overseeing her longstanding conservatorship, “It’s my wish and my dream for this to end.”

News that Spears would appear virtually in court as part of her much-discussed conservatorship has sparked even more interest in the arrangement — even prompting one fan to file his own petition asking the court to end it.

Spears, however, was the one people expected to make that request — and she did exactly that on Wednesday, though not through a formal petition. Her attorney, Samuel D. Ingham III, in an Aug. 31, 2020, filing reiterated to the court that the conservatorship is voluntary. While unnamed sources in her circle have told the press for years that she’s unhappy with the arrangement, and a Monday New York Times story says confidential court documents corroborate that, Spears herself hasn’t publicly confirmed it until now

To condense more than a decade of legal proceedings and nuanced arrangements for background: Spears’ conservatorship was established in 2008, after she was hospitalized for a psychiatric evaluation. The oversight is split into two parts, conservator of the person and conservator of the estate. Her father, Jamie Spears, did both until September 2019, when a woman named Jodi Montgomery took over the personal side. Jamie, along with attorney Andrew Wallet for several years and now with Bessemer Trust, oversees her business interests and finances.